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Late thoughts at night really knocked all my nerves. Desperately longing to something fun and fulfilling. I haven’t sorted out the difference between being unhappy and confusion. All things just circling around my head. Empty. Stagnant.

I’ve created a lot of memories while climbing on the top. I stubbornly reaching every peak to feed my eyes with ‘how the world so peace when I’m above’, with ‘I could die at any moment’ feels, with ‘I would like to do this for the rest of my life’ thought. I thought that it’ll go smoothly according to my plan, but like any other recreational activities that I’ve been through, I just got tired and sick of it.

I came to meet a lot of people, gained connections and experiences, shared broken pieces to trusted ones, but in the end I just got tired and sick of them.

I just got tired and sick to the things that I’ve done and people I’ve met not because I don’t like them anymore, not because to what they did, not because of the viewpoint. I just don’t understand the way they stand and the way I am standing in this rigid world. They are too far away and it’s too tiresome to catch up. I feel that it’s too hard for me to do things over and over again. It’s just so hard to explain how it really works. I just gave up understanding things.

To indulge myself in any form of media is a form of escapism. For me, this world is just too crowded and polluted, want to die and rest my soul in safest haven, but I couldn’t, I’m just weak for a second but I’m not a total idiot. Maybe I’m the number one complainant, just small things want to throw up, want to go messed up. One thing I can be sure of, every people has their own story to tell, don’t act out or speak loud without reading the line and without verifying facts. Maybe other people burdened more than I am experiencing right now, but to be fair, don’t underestimate single word, it can harm one’s life. Maybe I’m writing this to get some tap and encouragement  (how childish, right?), but I don’t have someone I can rely on.

I’m so tired and sick.


My First Major Climb (Dayhike)

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Tarak Ridge’s summit

As a grown-up, I deliberately think the things that I really like to do but before Universe whisper her greatness, there’s no hint for climbing a mountain. It was like a dream.

Tarak Ridge of mt. Mariveles is one of the perfect creations that I’ve ever seen. Well, it’s a real tough to climb this mountain but I guarantee you that your soul will be filled more than enough.



Who said money can’t buy happiness?

Bag, shoes, dress, food, books, new gadgets, computer games, cars and many THINGS that make you happy and you can only have it if you have money.

We are in a big circle with a magnificent creation, it looks like everything is perfect but suddenly we found ourselves in debt, and all we can do is to list down our dreams and hoping to grant it by the destiny.

My bucket list is expensive. I’m hoping that the lucky nine will hit me, and magic will appear to kind people who will help me in collecting penny, to achieve the list of happiness. Here is my countdown list of happiness.


Start your day with a book (My original photo)

The Catcher in the RYE by J.D. Salinger (My original photo)

For your information: “the highly educated, and those who used two languages on a regular basis, tend to have lower rate of dementia. While education can neither prevent the formation of abnormal proteins non-stop inflammation.”- From reader’s digest

Other than exercise, diet and coffee, there’s another way to prevent Alzheimer’s disease. Read books. In books you can find new ideas and information that aid brain cells to be active. If we stay stagnant in way of thinking, it’s possible to lose everything.

Books for me are not just to prevent things; it serves as my third world. I have read the book/s of Jose Rizal, Maria Ressa, Ricky Lee, Susan Hill, Mitch Albom, Daphne du Maurier, Thich Nhat Hanh, Nicholas Sparks, John Green, Suzanne Collins, Paulo Coelho, Haruki Murakami, E.L. James, Rainbow Rowell, and other than that, a lot of academic books. While reading a book there’s a cloudy with sparks and unexplained feeling inside my body. I want to share this feeling. I want you to experience the book that will strike you and change your life forever. I want to share every single word of what I have learned. I want you to enjoy the taste of life in book.

Asking me why I’m not good in grammar? Because, whenever I read a book, I imagine that I am the main character, the discoverer, the narrator and not a copywriter.


I can afford to buy a coffee, but to invite Paulo Coelho for free, Oh! I need to dig for treasure or to mine gold. I know it will be worthy.

Sir Paulo Coelho (My original photo)

If you have read atleast three of his books you will understand my sentiment. He is the man of wisdom. He has received the best gift that he can share to the whole world, to be a Pilgrim.

Books of Sir Paulo Coelho (My original photo)

The Alchemist, Brida, and by the river Piedra I sat down and wept. Those books taught me about pursuing a dream and to find the real meaning of life. You will encounter trials and hardships but the important thing is never look back to say “I can’t”. We have to take a risk, we need to trust, we need to break to stand strong, and we need to learn to forgive and to move on.

For sir Paulo, soon, we will see each other, we will discuss things. Discuss the wonder of life, share experiences, problems and solutions. You taught me a lot. You are great, thank you so much.


         My Papa and Mama

Family is the most important thing in my life, without them, I will be nothing. Without them, I will not able to pursue my dreams. I thank them so much not only in financial assistance but also in helping me to cheer up whenever I’m down.

Treating them in the most expensive restaurant in world is the simplest way to thank them. If I have a chance to give whatever they want, I will give it to them without hesitation in spending money. Giving what they want is one thing that makes me happier.

I have researched the most expensive restaurant in world.


Sublimotion (Ibizia- An Island in Mediterranean Sea) ©www.therichest.com/the-10-most-expensive-restaurants-in-the-world

Sublimotion is in the Hard Rock Hotel in Playa de Bossa, allowing only 12 patrons in the restaurant at a time, it is seriously exclusive. The 20-course gastro-sensory meal is intended to elicit an emotional experience. – An experience which may or may not include crying upon receiving the $2000 check. But this really is a once in a lifetime meal: Technology, psychology, design and – of course – world class food all come together to make this a unique dining adventure.

Long time ago, Mama and Papa wished to go tour around the world. I want to grant this wish, because this is also the other way to thank them to their great job in raising me from bump.

Hong Kong Disneyland 5 Anniversary lighting performance. ©http://commons.wikimedia.org/wiki/File:Hong_Kong_Disneyland_1827.JPG

Their first stop is Hong Kong-Disneyland. Take a picture with Mickey mouse and drive all the rides.

Buddha and Temple of Thailand. ©www.wya-thailandyoga.com

Next stop is Thailand, they just want to experience the culture of Thais. Take a picture with the golden Buddha and visit the sacred temple of Thais to pay respect.

Kakadu National Park. ©www.bcl.com.au

Top three is Australia. They said that they want to go in Kakadu National Park, because they want to know the society of the Aborigines.

They will go to seize the beauty of the world. I will give it to them.


This is not a case of winning house and lot in a game show, this is what I need before to have my own family.

Mama said to me that “plan your life as early as you can. Before thinking to have your own family, you need to be ready; you need something that you can give to your children.” Mother knows best, and I want to be a Mother with the pride.

Now I’m planning to apply in PAG-IBIG to have an easy way to my dream house and lot, and I’m also planning to buy another lot in Ilocos Sur.

My own design that I have sketched in SketchUp. This is so close to my dream house.



Searching for your one true love is the hardest test that you will ever had in your life. Love will test your patience, understanding, faith, honesty, flexibility, time, effort, temptation, lust, respect, reputation, attitude, character and personality.

There are different examples of Love, but I just want to provide one example, my Love life.


People give flowers as presents because flowers contain the true meaning of Love. Anyone who tries to possess a flower will have to watch its beauty fading, but if you simply look at a flower in a field, you will keep it forever, because the flower is part of the evening and the sunset and the smell of damp earth and the clouds on the horizon” (Paulo Coelho). Love is the best teacher of life, we must not own it. We need to let Love works depending on law of nature. We don’t need to control it, we just need to sit, relax, and enjoy the savor of Love. Someday, I will tie a knot with Love and not to possession. I will walk on in the aisle of church and kiss the man who had unending love, respect, understanding and faith. We will make a good decision together.

I found him in my dream. I found the man of my life in the middle of the night with his combat shoes, wearing his tuxedo, standing at the point of the aisle with the orchestra in set. The bridegroom and the future Father of my children. The peace that I want in my life, this happiness is priceless.

To conclude, money can’t buy happiness. Money can’t buy my family, friends, my future husband and children. Money can only buy our short-time desires and possession. The real happiness is not a possession to be priced, it is the rational feeling of love with fulfillment.

Keep Love to go on, keep the faith.




      People are imperfect. We do what we want but we feel sorry in the end. We can see the situation but we can’t look on it. We can hear the supplication but we never listen on it. We touch the love but we never feel it. We have everything but we can’t value all of that. We keep on wanting for more. People are like these. If there’s a way to go back and to change all of these, I will.

    Time Machine is one way to change all. If Albert Einstein had invented this, maybe people are happy and satisfied. Maybe we are not miserable in finding answers. Maybe the word “regret” is unidentified. Maybe my life is more than a life…

        A long time ago, my mama and papa rushed me in the Hospital. I had symptoms of “Dengue”, and they found that my situation is in between of life and death. Fortunately, the Hospital had good Doctors and the prayers of my family saved me from death. But after months, they rushed me again in the Hospital. Again I must fight the death. After a long month of medications, I survived. But after that, I felt no more. I just want to remain silent. I don’t like to talk. In this point my “attitude” begins to develop… a poor attitude.

       I’m alone and lonely. I have nobody. I don’t have friends that I may call on in my lost and weak. I’m angry, my mind occupied by jealousy and I can’t find the way out of the dark. People keep on saying that I had Stigmatized disease before. That’s the start of my selfishness.

          I eat alone. I read alone. I sleep alone. I entertain myself alone. Yes, it’s crazy but that’s the reality hits me a lot. I’m too young to think rational and I don’t even know the word rational that time. Too young to understand things. Too young to know more.

             Years passed fast. They call it College life.

      I understand more, and the rational things too.Friends are rare but atleast I have one or two.

         I open my eyes together with my mind and heart. I laugh, I smile, I did crazy things, I did serious things, and I did challenging roles. But I thought that was enough. My mind saying that “you are not good enough”; “you are nothing compare to other”. People say that don’t compare yourself to others because you have your own way, oh! Come on! Even the best person compares himself to others.

           I am not a happy person. You think you know me? No, you don’t know me unless you are with me in years. You hate me, ok; I respect you as a person. You don’t like me, fine; I don’t even give a damn to like you too. Don’t push the things that are not capable to move.

           You see me as a wicked member of your group, that’s me. I can’t agree with your sentiment if you can’t explain your own. I can argue all night if you want to. If you feel bad of what I did to you, I didn’t mean it, I’m just angry and I want to yell as a response. You see me as intimidating; it’s my way to guard myself, because I don’t trust people easily. You see me alone in Hallway, because I like to be alone, it is more comfortable. I love to talk myself and to think deep. You see me as a competitive person, yes, because I want to give honor to my Family. I love them so much, and I owe them my life.

I don't have a lot friends but I have them.

I don’t have a lot of friends but I have them.

           But… I want to change this. If I could turn back the time I will change my ATTITUDE at the very beginning. Maybe if I change my attitude as early as I can, I have a lot of Friends. Maybe people will go easy on me. Maybe I can have a genuine smile to share. Maybe I’m not alone in Hallway. Maybe I will not talk to myself every time. But time machine is just a product of imagination. We can’t invent that kind of Science because only God knows best for us.

Raju Rastogi scene: Job interview

         I remember what Raju Rastogi said to Job interviewers: “You keep your job, I keep my attitude.” And the interviewer responded: “I’ve interviewed countless candidates for 25 years; everyone turns into a yes-man to get the job”. Many of us will just say “yes sir”, “I will sir” just to have a job or to keep the job, but is that really you? Think about that. You don’t need to please your boss and other people.

            After watching that movie I said to myself that, “do I need to change my attitude just to please everyone? Do I need to change my attitude just to have friends? Or I MUST need to change because it’s the best thing I can do to myself; to free myself, to free myself from all worries, to free myself from envy, to free myself from angry.”

          I know it’s not too late to change my attitude, and I will. People’s changing, I am too. And if that time comes, I will say to myself that: “you don’t need the time machine to change, look at you now, you are a better person and you should be proud of yourself”.

               As you read this, I hope you can understand me more.

              Change for the better!

Thank you.





Sydney Opera House time of Dawn

The notion of liberalism of the country is one way to achieve freedom, where in the Philippines is hardly performed.

I choose Australia.

Australia scores high on personal freedom according to social progress index (SPI) and place as number one in the world in terms of personal rights last January 2014. People are holiday maker and adventurer. Because of freedom and personal rights, they can do what they want, can speak in any ways; can maximize their time to have fun without thinking about limitations. In short, they live life to the fullest.

Going to the beach with famed warm weather

For them, problems are always there but it doesn’t mean you isolate yourself with pressures and problems; it must be solve and after that go on, be happy, have fun.

Australia’s life expectancy is 81 years old, 11th highest in the world. One factor why we live longer because we enjoy life, but the main factor to live longer is to give attention in our health. Australians are cognizant when it comes to health. If people around you are health conscious you will adapt it, but, if people around you are greedy you will too. It’s okay to neglect your boyfriend but never neglect to check out your shape and balance your weight.

woman exposing the lifestyle of Australians

Not only the freedom and wellness but also tourist spots, like lush oceans and vast landscapes.

There are two tourist spots that I want to visit: First, the Opera House

Opera House in Sydney- constructed by the famous Danish architect John Utzon, this Opera House is a world famous tourist attraction drawing a number of tourists from across the world. A tourist can take a tour of the backstage and the front of the house.

In this place I will kiss my love without thinking of people around us. As I said, Australia is liberated. They don’t mind if there’s a couple kissing in the middle of the road or anywhere, and that is the one reason why I love liberated countries. Showing love without hesitation.

Second, the Kakadu National Park

Kakadu National Park is also a World Heritage site and a most visited tourist attraction in Australia. It is the home of about 300 Aboriginals. One can find the Aboriginals residing among the Savannah Woodlands and Tidal Wetlands.

I love this place because Papa loves it too. My family is very artistic, and to draw this kind of place is a privilege for us. Awesome places!

For your information: “Australia has bucked the trend of economic downturn that plagued the rest of the world becoming the go-to emigration destination for workers from Europe as well Asia”. Well-economy, freedom, tourist attraction, such a lovely country.

The job of the socially conscious citizen and enquiring mind is to question the worlds around us, such as, why we can’t be perfect and why do we need to do it? Questions about the cultural differences, inequalities and injustices. Admit it or not, we have these kinds of attitude of comparing, bragging, envy. We are Filipino, and we should be proud, each country has own uniqueness. We are not political and economical acceptably, but we should remember that there are lot of ways to improve.

Love, care, sincerity, hospitality, family ties… there’s no place like Philippines. Love our country; love our home without questions and doubts.

Philippines’ Flag



tourist-places-around-the-world.blogspot.com (for Australia’s photos)

the richest website (for news about Australia) smh.com.au/travel/relentless-tourism (for Australians photo)


Eleonor & Park

Park Sheridan, a biracial boy (half Korean, half white), and Eleanor Douglas, a red-haired girl, are two misfit teenagers living in Omaha, Nebraska, in 1986. The book is a love story — Eleanor and Park fall in love over comic books and mixed tapes on their school bus — but deals with issues such as domestic abuse, child abuse, racism, bullying and body image.

do read. this type of genre is the one that I love.